Here's to Day 7!

Something magical has happened 6 days ago.

It may not seem magical or special to you but for me it's one of the most important things in my life (right after my family). Happiness. My own happiness. I believe that if you're not happy yourself you can't bring happiness to the people around you. My happy news is that I feel happy. I've been feeling happy for 6 days now. 

Most people say that it's love that makes you smile, and it's love we live for- and I agree. But unrequited love has the very opposite effect. A broken heart is far from being a reason to smile or laugh, but at some point in our lives we all suffer from a broken heart and it takes time to find the pieces and put them together. It takes time to feel whole again. One must want to move on, to give moving on a fair chance. But once it happens we can begin to feel happy again. While lying in bed 6 nights ago I thought about him, and I realised that the thought of him didn't bother me any more. I felt no warm feeling inside. I felt sad but in a good way. I was moving on, and I was leaving him behind.

The next day I saw him and in a very cheeky way he hugged me from behind. I felt his lips on my neck and then he left, and my feelings for him left with him. I thought about what has just happened and came to a conclusion that he no longer brought butterflies to my stomach. It felt meaningless. It was meaningless. I came home that day and felt in a way that I haven't felt for months. I didn't understand that feeling. It was as though I was re-born again. I danced and sang that evening, to HAPPY songs. No more dark, depressing, blue songs. The next day I felt the same. I was no longer affected by his smile, his words, the way he looked at me. His existence served a reminder of how stupid I was when I fell for him. How I allowed him to make a fool of me. I was a joke, an object of mere importance. Someone he knew will be there for him, someone who will pick him up, someone he can put down. I understand it all today, and I choose to be something different. I have finally moved on. I'm ready for something new. I'm Happy. 6 day's since I'm free. Free from loving him.  

Throwing up what you're keeping inside: Song Writing

A few weeks ago I've discovered the power of song writing.

I found my mind to be full of worries and my heart bursting with emotions.

I knew I needed to let it all out one way or another before I explode.

I found some paper and a pen, sat on the floor and wrote words.

Words. Any words that came to my mind.

After about 7 minutes of vigorous scribbling, my once plain paper was filled with words and short phrases. Not all of them made sense to me, '' Don't eat yoghurt'' held no reference to what I was feeling at that moment, but for some reason that was what I wanted to write.

From that one piece of paper, from those 7 minutes: I wrote 3 different songs.

Of course I'm no Mick Jagger, and I'm not the new Adele but those 3 songs helped me to understand myself and my feelings. They released me of the bucket of emotions I carried around as I was able to tell my story.

Song writing is not hard. Think of it as if you're writing a letter to someone or as a poem.

You can't go wrong with song writing, no one can tell you that the song you wrote is wrong, simply because no one has gone through exactly what you have experienced and no one can tell you what you feel.

Write those lyrics and if you feel ready, you can even sing them out loud. Sing them as they come. Shout, whisper, speak them out. Free yourself.

Hitting Those 2013 Targets

How to stick to your New Years Resolution?

I'm going to give you 5 simple tips to help you be successful with your New Years Resolutions.

1. Make one, or at most two resolutions. Your chances of being successful improve when you focus on one aspect of your behaviour.
2. Don't be too hard on yourself and think of something that is achievable. When you discover what you want to change, improve or learn, set yourself some sub-goals and use them to measure your success.
3. Know why you want to achieve your goal. This will help to motivate you, and keep you on track when you're tempted to give up. For example if you want to save some money and stop spending money on unnecessary things, determine why you want to do this and what you will gain from it. (okay, yes I know everything is needed but there are some things we can live without. Right? No?)
4. REWARDS! YES! Reward yourself when you pass a milestone, be proud of yourself. After all it's an achievement, you're one step closer to your desirable goal.
5. Be prepared to revert to your old ways from time to time, but instead of giving up, remember that you are only human and that it's O.K not to be perfect.
   
   
   Good Luck And I Wish You All The Best In 2013!